Corona Virus

March 21, 2020

Today, I wake up not remembering  immediately what day it is.

 Yesterday, I unexpectedly fall asleep and awaken wondering, what time is it?Where am I? Why am I sleeping? What’s next? What to plan for, what to accomplish, write, do, etc.

Oh, I remember—all of that has stopped.  I remember now.  The daily schedule has changed so radically, the patterns have ceased.

In life, patterns are fascinating phenomenon.  They set a tone, a rhythm for life to go forward and follow a path. The chambered Nautilus a perfect example, building, building, so perfectly on what has come before, nothing lost or discarded and yet no growth stopped  due to a constraining  pattern. The pattern is the way, the path.

We feel relief when there is a rhythm to follow.  Here we go— this is the way.  It may be our own pulse, or a pulse given, picked up, even sometimes imposed.  It may be the rhythm of a wise council or unwise council.

But when we go with it, we follow, we are in it and we move.  And in the movement, we can ascertain, this is good, this is the right path or something is amiss.  I/we are in a pattern that is off center.  In our day to day living, as we affect the planet, the harmful patterns have ceased, which is proving very beneficial to the earth.  Air travel slowed, car travel slowed, factory emissions slowed.  But the helpful structures have also ceased: work, schools, healthcare, life, causing deep disruption, fear, uncertainty.

Now, with this Corona Virus, all of this has ceased: no rhythm, no pattern, no this, no that.  We are stopping our patterns, helpful and harmful to listen deeply to an overriding pattern of the Corona Virus.

In astrology there are moments when the moon is Void of Course.  They are moments of the in-between, transitions from one sign to another.  They can be thought of as times when prayer is deeply felt and effective. In the Void of Creation, all things are possible, all possibilities are present but none yet chosen, no direction yet taken.

These times can be both terrifying and exhilarating for the sense of freedom or openness that comes with the falling apart of a known structure.

For example, when an unhealthy marriage finally crumbles, the marriage partners can experience a flurry of freedom before a new normal sets in.  When school lets out for the summer and the schedule is open, a relief until the openness becomes boredom or lack of structure without direction becomes harmful.

We are in a similar place to that now, imposed by a virus who we do not know.

I would also point out that the virus does not know us either.  It is a mutual meeting.  We do not know each other’s habits and patterns.  Scientists are scrambling to track the patterns to capture, contain, conquer the virus to save lives.The front line. I applaud them every moment.

Viruses are so intelligent and behave in surprisingly innovative ways.

I am feeling/sensing the presence of an innovative kind of viral mind of Humanity rising up in a good way: the minds of China, the minds of Russia, Italy, Egypt, Qatar, the UK, the US, Canada, Australia, Africa, Brazil, the sub zero intelligence of Antarctica, all working together, letting the network of brain, mind, intelligence and spiritual understanding of what we are being tasked with to come together.  And through that, an understanding of the virus energies, so that our world can be at peace and balance with a new rhythm emerging that encompasses the networking viral energies of how to work together.

Our Earth is taking a breath.  It is breathing, flowing, benefitting, cleansing from this great pause that has been imposed upon our patterns,  The patterns that have been causing so much damage.

Let us leave a place for the structure of Life as we know it to reweave itself.

Within, deeper and deeper still, there is always an eternal  pulse, a rhythm of God that does not change, no matter the outer circumstance. It is steady, it is love, it is eternal.  May we all connect to the doorways, passageways, light, sound, color, that bring us exactly there.  At that point, we are not lost, we are never lost, never alone, but have ears listening like deep roots into the earth, like delicate golden tendrils into the skies for the Sound beyond Sound.

Here we are One and we go forward, leaving behind, of necessity what cannot be sustained and taking up the pieces of what is now here for us to reweave, recreate a new fabric.

If you are a person who meditates, may your practice deepen at this time, entering into the holy space of the Divine consciousness from your cushion.

If you are a person of Nature, may the sounds,the light, the moisture, the scents, the colors of  Nature move through your body and recalibrate your nervous system and spirit.

If you are a person who prays to any name of God or the nameless God, may the heartspace from where you pray feel the balance of giving and receiving, the breathing aliveness of prayer, asked and answered, asked and answered with constancy and ease.

If you are person, whose daily life is the prayer, the kindness, the actions, the compassion, the thoughtfulness, may you find reason every day to smile true smiles that light you up from the inside out.

If you are the artist, who turns to paper and pen, or canvas and paint, or camera, or clay or instrument to transform the unnameable into form, may you be protected and inspired to bring your vision forward.

If you are the mother or the father or the son or the daughter, the one who is caring for the cared for, may you turn to one another to see your own reflection and may you turn inward to understand that you are never alone, and may you have mercy on the all the moments of the day when you don’t know what to do, or what is next and know that you will be met in its unfolding  by the eternal pulse.

And if you are the doctor, the nurse, the healer, the laborer who facilitates what must come next, what is needed, may you receive grace in each moment.

And if you are the cared for, you are the teacher.

May all those we lose be wrapped in light

May our losses and grief be held by each other in kindness and compassion.

May our way forward be sourced from the deep, pure light of the Creator.

~Jan Sandman~

Summer Newsletter 2019

June , 2019

As we approach the Summer Solstice, I realize that I have not posted a newsletter yet this year and am surprised by that.  The year has been full.  Authentic Movement classes have been powerful and full.  I offered a Beginning class on Wednesday nights during the winter.  It was well attended and a beautiful beginning into the depth of this form.  If any of you are interested in practicing, please drop me a line and let me know.  It is through interest that the classes and workshops develop.

Kelley Hunter, astromythologist and I offered a workshop combining Authentic Movement and  the Astrology of Moving through the Eclipse Portal in the early part of the year.  We are currently planning another offering and the details will be formed soon.

I have offered several Family Constellation Workshops this year and will continue to do so.  These are usually offered on a Saturday afternoon in Montpelier, but not always.  If you have done this work, you know about its effectiveness and mystery in releasing inherited patterns and entanglements in ancestral and family systems.  If you haven’t yet tried it but want to or just want to know more, please give me a call and I am happy to talk about it with you.  I am planning to make some short videos to post that will address certain aspects.  I will post them on my website and on my Facebook page–Jan Sandman: Listening into the Center.  Constellation work can be done in a group and can also be done privately and over Skype or FaceTime.

In August, I will again be teaching at the New England Women’s Herbal Conference.  I will lead three workshops, one regarding Authentic Movement and Moving with the Plants, a Constellation workshop creating a Prayer for the Earth and the third, a Sound Healing Ceremony.   If you plan to go to the New England Women’s Herbal Conference this year, perhaps I will see you there.

Since March, I have been working in a new painting studio and loving it.  I just created a website for my art work and will be adding to it over time.  Here is the link in case you are interested.

And as always, you can contact me for private sessions.

I wish you all a glorious Summer Solstice.



Spring, 2018

Dear Friends,

Today, I put the  geraniums that had wintered over inside and were in full bloom out on the porch even though it is not yet May. I am ready for Spring, the soft rain, the brightening light, longer days, lighter or no layers needed, the soft ground. My birthday is in April and this rose was centered in a spring bouquet of flowers I received in honor of my birth.  I love all flowers but roses hold a special place as a representation of the layers of love in the heart and soul, layers of complexity, layers of beauty, layers of growth, connectedness, what is open, what remains hidden, what is possible, color, fragrance, patience, softness.  So this rose is inside and the geraniums are outside.  The rose is now receding while the geraniums burst.  Life.

A good friend died this past month…her death fast and holy, like a shooting star lighting up the heavens….bright, bright, bright and then gone.  She leaves in her wake the legacy of the profound ways she touched so many people, her deep faith in humanity’s goodness. And the reminder that every moment matters.

I am paying more consistent attention these days to exploring through painting, appreciating the mystery and delight of the process and how painting somehow has the capacity to reach something in me which then feels completed or expressed by the painting’s existence. I am fascinated by this and by how words are not a necessary part of this completion.  Life beyond language.

Several offerings this Spring and Summer.  On Saturday, May 19th, I am offering a Family Constellation workshop.  These workshops are very powerful and healing whether you come as a representative or as someone who is presenting a personal constellation for the group to work with.  They can clear both specific and universal disruptions in the flow of love that moves through the generations, and in fact moves through all things. The complete description is in the Calendar section of the website.  Just click on the date in the calendar and the full description will come up. Contact me to register, or for more information.

In midsummer, either July 6, 7 or 8, I will be offering a day long Authentic Movement workshop.  Details will follow soon, but do let me know if you are interested and I will be sure you receive a flyer.

This year, I have the honor of  offering an Authentic Movement workshop at the Women’s Herbal Conference on Friday , August 24th.  So many bright beings  come together at this gathering.  Perhaps I will see you there!

As always, I offer individual sessions, across the dimensions  of what I am versed in, from bodywork to sound healing, family constellations, authentic movement, spiritual clarity, energy work.

Thank you for reading. Let me know if I can be of service or if you would like to register for one of my offerings.

as the spring light shines,

as ever,



White Stones, Bones and Mist

Dear Friends,

On Sunday, February 19, 2017, the book I have been working on was published.  Just before the final approval, my editor, Sarla Vasiliki Matsumura and I said a prayer and I lit the candle that held watch and space over the writing of the book for all of these months.  White Stones, Bones, and Mist: Authentic Movement and Living Prayer is available now through and through Createspace.    My hope is for the book to find its way into the hands and hearts of those who will benefit from it in some way.  Although it is centered on Authentic Movement, it will be of benefit to anyone who is concerned with embodying conscious living.  Writing and creating it has been a steadfast practice and joy. I offer gratitude to many people who participated in its creation, especially Sarla Matsumura, for her beautiful work in layout and editing, Elizabeth Anne Hin, for her abiding prayers and love, Barrie Fisher of Waitsfield, Vermont for her photographic skill and artistry, and the movers who volunteered to be photographed during a movement session. I hope you enjoy.

White Stones, Bones, and Mist: Authentic Movement and Living Prayer

White Stones, Bones, and Mist: Authentic Movement and Living Prayer

Upcoming Book soon to be released

White Stones, Bones, and Mist: Authentic Movement and Living Prayer

White Stones, Bones, and Mist: Authentic Movement and Living Prayer

My book is in the final stages of being proofed and ready for publication.  Here is a photo of the cover.  I took this photograph a few years ago while on a retreat in Bellagio, Italy.  This is Lake Como.  It was here that I knew and understood for certain that this book would be written.  I look forward to sharing it with you.

Just a reminder that there is a Family Constellation Workshop coming up on February 11 from 1:00-5:00.  Contact me at if you are interested.  There is room for more participants if it calls to you.

The Year Begins

January 1, 2017

The year begins.  The sun rises wherever I am.  I look out and breathe deeply.  I look in and I breathe deeply. In my breath, I experience space; I return to this, breath after breath after breath.  In the eternal space, I feel the steady pulsing of life ongoing, unlimited grace and possibility.   I move with an ongoing conversation of all beings around me as best as i am able.  I follow the thread of that conversation as it takes me through my day.

I follow my conscience.  I do my best to manifest and put my precious and limited energy towards creating something good, beautiful, helpful, life sustaining.  All around and through me, I experience the interweaving of all things.  I am  in the flow of this New Year.  Wishing all beings everywhere a year of grace and beauty…expected and unexpected….12234874_1061766983854580_3489289864130302759_n